I hate high school so much I hate the people and all the stress I cant deal with this

A Note to Everyone:

My greatest moment was when I said decided not to go through with it.

Thinking about you now brings me nothing but disgust.

This is the happiest I have been in a really long time.

I don’t know what I did wrong. I don’t know what pushed him away or what made him not want me anymore but it’s hard to know you weren’t good enough, and it’s really hard to imagine right now being good enough for someone else.

breaking up hurt and it still does. but what cuts really deep is your rejection of my body before that. i don’t feel good enough for anyone. i don’t want anyone to touch me again.

I just want it to all go away.

It feels so great being happy.

This place reminds me why I never want to come back.

now that ive made my bed and laid in it, im more terrified than ever before. if this fails, if i fail here, i will have nothing. and that is the scariest thing in the whole fucking world.

i am sick of always being blamed for everything. i wish i was raised with a single mother in poverty than live life with you as my father.

I always have to double check everything I write and send to you. I have to make sure I didn’t throw in an “I love you.” I hate having to constantly check this.

I catch onto everything.

I never thought my feelings for you were this strong. Never in a million years did I think they would end up being this strong. But it doesn’t matter anymore.